Lifestyle

Scenes From Gulf Shores, Alabama

04/06/2018 by John Leave a Comment

I walk down the beach in Gulf Shores, Alabama and I see black boys and white boys playing football together.

Further down the shore, a man is taking pictures of a woman in a sari, the colors of her clothing as vibrant as the light of the setting sun.

The next morning as I stroll the sands I watch women wearing hijabs and capris playing with their children in the sand and I see interracial couples walking hand in hand.

These are things I never saw when I came here in my youth. Back then there was only a sea of people who looked like me. The news shows me scenes of darkness and hatred, but when I walk down the beach in the state where a governor once stood blocking a school room door from those he deemed different, I see something else: hope.

Farmers And Sailors Revisited

03/17/2018 by John Leave a Comment

What Do I Really Want?

Is it really to be a “digital nomad,” letting the wind take me to some remote corner of the world where I’ll sit in a café and work from my laptop? Or would I rather put down roots somewhere close to friends and family? The problem is I still want both.

While owning a house and living in Asheville, I thought I wanted a life on the road, one full of new places and new experiences, but now that I’ve got it, I wonder what it would feel like to settle down someplace once again? There is a part of me that treasures the routines of being in one place and having a more consistent schedule. For example, I want to run another 100-mile race, but I have not been able to develop the discipline required to train for one while moving around so much.

It’s the Farmer’s And Sailors showdown surfacing once again. Though I love the life that I have been living over the past three years, never remaining in any one place for longer than 5 months at a time, it wears on me. Just when I start to know a place, it’s time to pack our bags and move on.

I know that happiness is not a place on a map. It is instead a quality of mind that must be cultivated. Life is precious and short and so I want to be intentional about how I spend my days. How can I be a farmer and a sailor at the same time, having my routines, a community, adventure, and discovery no matter where I am or what I am doing? How can I plant my garden on a moving vessel?

Based on a journal entry from 2.12.15

Follow Your Curiosity

03/03/2018 by John Leave a Comment

I watched a talk by Elizabeth Gilbert called Flight of The Hummingbird: The Curiosity Driven Life. Ms. Gilbert was in the habit of giving people the advice to “follow your passion”. A Facebook comment had made her realize that unlike her, not everyone has an all-consuming passion, something they would do no matter what. When people without that drive hear the advice to “follow your passion”, it makes them feel deficient in some way. I am one of those people.

So much that I read or listen to says the same thing, to follow my passion, to pour all my energy into that thing that I feel most strongly about. But after years of trying to decipher what it is that I am passionate about, no one thing ever seems to rise to the surface for very long at a time. This has been an ongoing source of frustration for me for most of my adult life.

In her talk, Ms. Gilbert goes on to identify people like myself as hummingbirds. We flitter around from one thing to the next and in so doing, cross-pollinate things, bringing ideas to new places and people. It was comforting to watch the talk and have someone acknowledge that not everyone has an overriding passion that makes clear to them the direction their life should follow. Her advice for people like me is to let curiosity be our guide.

It is good to be a hummingbird. Sometimes following my curiosity leads to a dead end, and sometimes to something that shapes the direction of my life for years to come. Curiosity led me to try skateboarding, which introduced me to fascinating people, exciting music, and different ways of thinking about my life. It was curiosity that brought me back to Outward Bound after my course to see what it was like for the people who work here, and 20 years later, I’m still exploring where that pathway leads. Curiosity led to getting a degree in Web Technologies and though I’m still not certain what role it will ultimately play in my life, I liked learning something new. I am a curious ultra-runner, not super passionate about it, but curious enough to really enjoy it. The list could go on for a while.

My curiosity has not lead to fame, riches, or a lucrative career, but it has taken me on a fascinating journey, one that I could have never imagined before embarking upon it. I’ve lived in the Caribbean, hiked and biked in New Zealand, managed a restaurant, cooked for pilgrims walking across Spain, and so many other things. Curiosity is at the heart of what keeps me on the road, moving forward into a future that is unknown, but more interesting because of it’s uncertainty. When you don’t know what’s beyond the horizon, the possibilities are infinite.

I envy those who have a passion, but I don’t think I want to trade places with them. I have no idea what I’ll be doing even six months from now, and that uncertainty keeps me awake and alive, ever scanning my field of vision for what’s next, ever moving across the landscape of this life, occasionally getting stuck in some valleys, but eventually always finding the next mountaintop. Life is sweet, but I think even sweeter when I drink its nectar like a hummingbird.

If you liked this post, you may be interested in I Am a Multipotentialate

Based on a journal entry from 2.23.16